I did it. I failed my oncology exam. I am pretty sure I failed it. I felt so dumb. I was looking at some questions, and thinking, I know this, I can see the diagram, and see the page in the book and in my notes, but I couldn't remember what it was called. Then when I got to the short answer I couldn't remember anything about omega-3 and omega-6 except that they are fats and one is definitely good for you, and one might be bad, but maybe not, because I can't fucking remember. And then, when I got to the multiple choice I was just like...WTF. I don't think I know most of this. Bleck. I feel awful (but strangely relieved because this burden is off of my shoulders. Except it isn't, I keep trying to tell myself, because now I have to deal with the consequences. This is really the result of my procrastination, you know. If I hadn't procrastinated, I probably would have studied at least a little more, and then maybe have done better. I suppose I could drop the class, but I would feel like a quitter, plus I already have one W (withdraw) on my transcript from the time at the U of M that I switched to calc based physics when I hadn't finished calc yet. That sucked. I could probably safely have one more withdraw, without having serious concerns, but I would prefer not to. DAMNIT!!! I am SO FUCKING STUPID!!! I HATE MYSELF!!! I HATE HOW STUPID AND LAZY AND FAT I AM!!!

GaAaAaAaAaAaAaAH!!! I am taking my stupid sorry life to bed.